It still almost doesn't seem real, but J.R. and I are expecting a little one to join our family around the beginning of November 2017. We're excited (and nervous) to share this new adventure in life.
I knew I was pregnant around March 2nd, but it took me a few days to tell J.R.
Our miscarriage in September of 2015 had been really hard on both of us, but I think it especially broke J.R.'s heart. So I was nervous about all the unknowns this pregnancy brought. Would we have another miscarriage? Or would this time be different?
When I told him I was pregnant, he went through all the emotions. Haha. First he was shocked, but when he realized I was being serious, the biggest smile broke out across his face. Then one or two tears might have escaped from his eyes. Happy tears. Which took me by surprise, and made me cry. That hadn't happened the first time.
April 20th, 2017 was our doctors appointment, and our first ultrasound with this pregnancy. I guess neither one of us realized how nervous we were for it. With our first pregnancy, the ultrasound had revealed there wasn't an actual fetus, only the gestational sac. There had been no heartbeat, and no baby. J.R. told me that he had been holding his breath, expecting the doctor to tell us the same thing this time around.
But it wasn't the same at all! Almost immediately I could see that there was a tiny little human shaped image on the screen. Then the doctor found the heart beat, and the sound filled the room. I thought I would cry, but I didn't because I was so shocked. There was a baby. A tiny blur, and an intensely paced little heart beat.
In the picture above, you can see the outline of the baby's head and ear. Their little arm and hand is extended out above their face.
J.R. is convinced we are having a boy, and he tells everyone that the baby is flexing his arm in the ultrasound. Haha!
After our doctor's appointment, we were both stunned and in so much shock that we got half way home before realizing we'd forgot to go down to the lab for blood testing. Haha.
Later that day as we were eating dinner, J.R paused and looked at me very seriously. "Do you think our baby has a soul already?" he asked.
I'm not entirely sure what the answer is, but it made my heart happy to know that J.R. already cares so much about this little tiny person, that with Heavenly Father, we created together.
Wednesday, May 17th was our second doctors appointment. I'm in my 15th week of pregnancy now, and we got to hear the baby's heartbeat again.
As we were leaving the doctor said to J.R., "You have a great smile. Do you smile like that all the time? Or are you just happy to be a dad?"
J.R. laughed, "Both."